young adult • contemporary • romance
If the blind can find joy in music, and the deaf can discover it with colors, I will do my best to always find the sun in the darkness because my life isn’t one sad ending—it’s a series of endless happy beginnings.
The Leteo Institute’s revolutionary memory-relief procedure seems too good to be true to Aaron Soto — miracle cure-alls don’t tend to pop up in the Bronx projects. But Aaron can’t forget how he’s grown up poor or how his friends aren’t always there for him. Like after his father committed suicide in their one bedroom apartment. Aaron has the support of his patient girlfriend, if not necessarily his distant brother and overworked mother, but it’s not enough.
Then Thomas shows up. He has a sweet movie-watching setup on his roof, and he doesn’t mind Aaron’s obsession with a popular fantasy series. There are nicknames, inside jokes. Most importantly, Thomas doesn’t mind talking about Aaron’s past. But Aaron’s newfound happiness isn’t welcome on his block. Since he’s can’t stay away from Thomas or suddenly stop being gay, Aaron must turn to Leteo to straighten himself out, even if it means forgetting who he is.
Adam Silvera’s extraordinary debut novel offers a unique confrontation of race, class and sexuality during one charged near-future summer in the Bronx.
This book is so beautiful and dark at the same time. It started as a light and fun read until it build up gradually to the end which was a very emotional read for me. This book talks about friendship, sexuality, and a quest to find happiness in who you are indeed. This book also talks about dark matters such as depression and suicide. It brought the happiness side along to all the event of unhappiness.
The main character, Aaron, really colored the story beautifully alongside with the other characters which felt very natural and wasn’t a bit overdone. I love how Aaron was kind of started in the group of friends that somehow didn’t really give a positive impact to his life that he only had Genevieve, his girlfriend, who truly understand about his depression over losing his father, but then ended up opening his eyes to the people that truly cares for him. His mom was really tough and supported him in every way. And his brother, Eric, who really loved him although he didn’t really know how to express himself.
At first you will find this book—similar to many LGBT books—kind of sweet, light and full of flowers with how the relationship seems to grow. Until everything didn’t seems like what it was anymore. It just heartbreaking and cruel at the same time. It’s sad how Aaron’s journey to find himself and his true love brought so many unhappiness to his life. And the twist at the end, wow, I can’t describe my feeling.
But then overall, I can’t think of any book I read this year that can compare to this raw dark and beautiful story. This book really moved me in so many different ways that my eyes are still literally teary writing this review.